ARG. FUCK.

[elbales]

I am helping solicit contributions for a raffle that Project Read, the community org for which I volunteer, is putting on in November. I got a lovely pair of $25 gift certificates from a cool little consignment shop in Pacifica. I got them last week and had planned to drop them off at the PR office on Friday or Monday. For various reasons having to do with health (mine and others'), I didn't. I tucked them in their plain envelope into one of the folders PR gave me and put the folders aside until today, when I went to see about getting more contributions.

Now I can't find the certificates. FUCK. FUCKFUCKFUCK. If I can't dig them out of this shithole of a room soon, I am going to have to go back to the consignment shop owner and hand her $50 of my own money and ask nicely if she could please sell me a couple more certificates because I was such as jerk as to lose the ones she so kindly donated.

FUCK.
*grump*

I hate losing things. I am supposed to be the organized one. This is why I pay all the bills, because my husband loses them and I don't. Plus, to make it even worse, I have a committee meeting tomorrow at 9 for the fundraiser, and I'm going to have to admit to everyone that I lost a contribution. Or maybe I'll just say nothing and feel guilty.

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[tahari.livejournal.com]

Let's put it this way:
you donated your time
the lady donated those certificates
Even if you were getting paid the absolute minimum wage (6?) the value of the time you've already donated far exceeds the value of what you've accidentally misplaced.

also:
the certificates HAVE NO VALUE as long as they remain in your house
if you have lost the certificates, they are in your house
therefore, they have no value
therefore you have lost nothing of value

The only thing that can really happen to you is embarrassment. The org won't give you a hard time bc you are a volunteer with a good track record which makes you solid gold as far as they're concerned. If you cannot find the certificates, just admit your mistake. Mistakes happen, and they're used to it. Chances are the tickets will turn up on their own. If not, it would be more appropriate for you to make up for the lost tickets by getting the donor to reissue them or to work extra hard to bring in other donations than it would for you to spend $50 that you can ill afford.

Ass saved.

[elbales]

Thank you for the support -- you are such a sweetie. Plus you've always been good at the gentle shake and the "Look, dummy, *here's* how it really is."

I must preface further remarks with: DUH. DORK.

I totally forgot until after I'd already posted and left the apartment (whereupon it was too late to delete my post and save myself the embarrassment) that I *did* take the silly things in on Friday. It's just that no one from PR was there any longer (3-day weekend, local gov't employees, you know the drill), so it didn't stick very well because I didn't talk to any of them, just dropped off the envelope in Laura's inbox.

Phew. I am still untarnished. ^_^ Plus I have more stuff I collected today. Woo!

Re: Ass saved.

[tahari.livejournal.com]

You've always been way too hard on yourself.
You should keep a journal.

Re: Ass saved.

[elbales]

I never seem to be able to keep one going. And now I have the additional problem of being unable to use a pen for more than a minute or two at once. It's put a crimp in my letter writing, too.

Re: Ass saved.

[elbales]

Oh, and I know I've always been too hard on myself. Believe it or not, I am actually better about it than when I was in college. Strange but true! I heart therapy.

Re: Ass saved.

[tahari.livejournal.com]

*elizabeth* I made this statement in your journal on a journalling site.

Re: Ass saved.

[elbales]

LOL
Actually, I think that's kind of funny. Even without the can of whup-ass. :)

But I don't know, I'm not comfortable really keeping a journal where anyone else can see it (even stuff flagged private is potentially viewable -- admins, etc.). LJ feels more like a social place than a venue for serious self-examination, though I know plenty of people use it that way. Plus keyboarding is just as bad for me as handwriting, so doing anything regular here would represent just as much of a problem. I mostly use this space for gossiping with the few people I know on LJ. And keeping tabs on you, btw. Muahahaha.