Doctor Who: Doomsday (spoilers)
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elbalesI can't stop crying. Over a fictional show. Mock me if you must, I don't care. That episode pushed all of my buttons with both hands.
At least at the end of PotW, even though Nine was gone forever (and I cried plenty over that too), Ten and Rose were still together, mucking about the universe, righting wrongs and singing songs &tc. Even if she had left and gone home, there was the hope he might come back to visit, or she and Sarah Jane might form a friendship and help each other along, or... something. But she at least could know the Doctor was out there somewhere.
Now... They will never see each other again. Ever. They can't even take consolation in knowing they're in the same universe. It's a bereavement like death but in a sense even more complete. And afterward, Rose at least has her family, but Ten walks away from that last contact utterly alone.
So I'm crying uncontrollably because of all things, being utterly alone, losing the people I love, is what terrifies me the most--and seeing it happen in front of me, even just on a TV screen, hurts on a visceral level I can't control at all and probably will never be able to.
God, Ten's face. He looked so devastated. Watching his terror when Rose let go of that anchor hurt, too, because you could see the logical next reaction, if she'd been pulled into the void, and it too was devastation.
"Who's gonna hold his hand now?"
(And btw, RTD should be strung up for that runaway bride bullshit. It completely ruined the last scene of the show.)
At least at the end of PotW, even though Nine was gone forever (and I cried plenty over that too), Ten and Rose were still together, mucking about the universe, righting wrongs and singing songs &tc. Even if she had left and gone home, there was the hope he might come back to visit, or she and Sarah Jane might form a friendship and help each other along, or... something. But she at least could know the Doctor was out there somewhere.
Now... They will never see each other again. Ever. They can't even take consolation in knowing they're in the same universe. It's a bereavement like death but in a sense even more complete. And afterward, Rose at least has her family, but Ten walks away from that last contact utterly alone.
So I'm crying uncontrollably because of all things, being utterly alone, losing the people I love, is what terrifies me the most--and seeing it happen in front of me, even just on a TV screen, hurts on a visceral level I can't control at all and probably will never be able to.
God, Ten's face. He looked so devastated. Watching his terror when Rose let go of that anchor hurt, too, because you could see the logical next reaction, if she'd been pulled into the void, and it too was devastation.
"Who's gonna hold his hand now?"
(And btw, RTD should be strung up for that runaway bride bullshit. It completely ruined the last scene of the show.)
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Date: 2006-07-10 04:32 am (UTC)And she has nothing to remember him by. She was ripped into the alternate universe with only what she stood up in. She has no photographs. No letters. Nothing he might have given her. Nothing except her memories. Not even hope.
Yes, she will go on to make something of her life, because that's the Rose Tyler we saw in Season 1. She doesn't just give up. Never did. But she'll always be waiting and hoping and dreaming, wanting him to come back. The love of her life.
And the Doctor... well, he'll go on, too, because he always does. And he'll pick up another companion (Martha), and he'll care about her too. But he's already grieving enough over his people. Now he's lost the woman he fell in love with. Talk about kicking a bloke when he's down.
Shittiest companion exit ever, IMO.
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Date: 2006-07-10 09:34 pm (UTC)Totally. That's what gets me; the utter finality of it all. No mementos or last round of chips or teaming up with Ace (fine, I had dreams of that) or making a concious decision to let go; no looking up Sarah Jane when she needs her.
In fact -- does this reality even have the Doctor? If it doesn't, Rose is effectively the only Companion, apart from Mickey. So much for going to support group meetings on Tuesdays.
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Date: 2006-07-10 09:46 pm (UTC)Yeah. Absolutely nothing. Which means, IMO, that it's going to be so much harder to let go of her grief. No taking Sarah-Jane up on her offer, which would have helped. No chance that he'll drop in some day to check up on her - though that might be more painful than anything else: just as you think you're getting over him, WHAM, there he is again.
Nothing was said about alternate Doctors in this episode, though didn't the Doctor mention something in RotC about Time Lords not existing in parallel universes, because they could travel between them before the War? I've also heard something about there only being one Gallifrey in Classic Who anyway.
All the same, I may have found a way around that one and be visiting the idea in fic at some point...
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Date: 2006-07-10 10:12 pm (UTC)I think that the only one Gallifrey is official canon. Probably. The roommate said something about it, anyway.
Also, if the Genesis Ark is a souped-up TARDIS, and if all TARDISes need Time Lord biodata to function . . . we're talking the return of the Master, baby!